I hid from the world today.
Anti-social side came out and I actually avoided going out doors. Uncharacteristic at the moment as I go out every day. I am, for sure, on a down day.
I’ve changed up my workouts which was an undoutable win. I was shuffling about on YouTube and found some amazing yoga and HITT workouts that made me sparkle (I don’t sweat, I sparkle). I’ll be picking this up again tomorrow as I really enjoyed it.
However, yoga sequences are kinda difficult when you’ve a child climbing on you. Having to watch a Yoga tutorial from downward facing dog with your media player up high so the baby can’t grab, then having to fend her off when your doing a warrior pose – believe me it’s a workout within a workout. I’m aching regardless, means it’s working though right!
Strange fact of the day, turmeric in porridge (almond Milk, not cow’s) mixed with a little cinnamon and soya yogurt actually tastes half decent. I’m not talking tons of the stuff, just a 1/4 teaspoon in 1/2 cup of oats. Pretty good, and yellow as aposed to any form of pink or purple porridge makes a refreshing change. Turmeric is a fab antioxidant and has anti-inflammatory properties too, so great to add in to your diet. Who doesn’t love an antioxidant.
I’m going to work on my mood, I really don’t relish the thought of being down.
I took a moment to not write last night. I’ve been drowning in everything. House work, no break from taking care of every one else, feeling inadequate and uncomfortable in the body I have at the moment and just not having time to just breath purely for myself.
I am proud and pleased to say I put everyone before me, but I just needed a moment. A simple, selfish moment when I’m only me. When I’m not mummy or fiancee or daughter or granddaughter or housekeeper or menagerie owner. A silent moment of nothingness. The thing about being an introvert is that I crave a little down time. Don’t get me wrong, I adore my tribe. I love them a million times over and more, and I would do anything for them.
I keep thinking I’ll try get back to running maybe 3 times a week. Get up earlier and just get out and alone for just 30 mins for a run maybe with Demon dog, although he makes running so very difficult. Might start fulfilling my needs as an introvert. It might improve my fuse, because currently the smallest thing sets me off.
It’s certainly worth a shot.
On the upside, this weather is glorious! We’re enjoying it completely, and tomorrow Delilah gets to meet my godmother for the first time and we are very much looking forward to seeing them. We intend to get together at the park, the one with a decent cafe. It means that Ems and Dela and N (my oldests friends son/my godmother’s grandson) can have a play in the sun and we can have a coffee and a chat.
Yesterday Dela and I went to play at Nana’s while the lads were at Airsoft. Dela likes her splashing bowl, and stole my icelolly. Fun was had by all.
I hope you are enjoying the the, And taking care of yourselves. We all need to do that, and I need to practice what I preach.
This week I’m running on empty. Tired, in need of a little me time and I’m finding it impossible to make any time for that. There is always something that needs doing, for baby, for Man, for dog or for the cats or even someone else.
Right now is literally the first time I’ve properly sat down all day. Not sure I’ll even get a breather tomorrow as man is out playing army with his friends. So taking advantage of the ‘right now and currently giving myself a pedicure. Although it’s only going to be half of one because I forgot to get nail polish remover and I can get rid of the old polish. That repainting is going to have to wait until tomorrow evening. I’m sat here with my feet in water, sugar scrub and lotion at the ready. A little bit of bliss in a bucket. Might even stretch and gel polish or Jamberry my nails this evening. It’s amazing what a mani or pedicure can do.
The older I get and the more everything else becomes a priority, the more I understand there is value in self care. The five minutes stolen when Dela is napping and I’ve rushed to get the kitchen cleaned, that five minutes for a hot tea, an actual comfy seat is very much needed. So when she wakes up as soon as bum hits the sofa, I’m a grumpy mummy bear and no mothettrucker better cross me for the afternoon.
I spent the morning with my Dad while Rob was at work. We went to B&Q to buy some maisonary paint and metal paint. I’ve set myself the mission to paint my outside window sills and garden gate. Got back to my house so my Dad could admire the new front door, took care of dinner for Delilah and Dad and then Man when he got home too.
I knew we were eating out for dinner this evening, because of the belated birthday meal with the family for grandad. I stuck to really healthy options again all day. Oats for breakfast, yogurt and fruit for lunch and a salad while we were out which was difficult to eat as Delilah had her hands in it. Although the salad was the lowest calorie dish on the menu, I was disappointed I had wasted 500 cals on it. I think I would have much preferred a chip or a singular bite of burger, or even 2 and a half pasta shapes. I’m glad I stuck healthy though; every cloud!! I better have lost weight or inches on Monday when I jump on the scales and do measurements. I have not deviated one bit, I’ve moved my butt every day and I’ve drunk a ton of water. So here’s hoping!
I have saved about 150cals for this moment. I made some mint bubble crunch and it’s lovely, healthy (ish) treat. It’s going down with a very green tea.
Happy Saturday. Try sneak in ten mins just for you.